You know, i have a pretty cool network of fans and collaborators going on at the moment... , just to name a few... (apologies if i left anyone out...)

...but even so, when i look back at my gallery, it's strange how many old pals and collaborators are no longer around.  Online acquaintances come and go, i know.  Still, i wonder what happened to some of these people.  I find myself wondering, where'd Lyanyne go?  Why'd CMunkii, a crazy talented artist, suddenly vanish one day and leave no trace?  
What happened to Significant-Pie and his brother, who were creating some interesting stuff?
What about the people like BurkeOnTheSly and Barkis and all the other people who i seemed to talk to all the time, and then they just went away?  What about Armendangerous and ProperMutation and Flagellant-Chicken? 

I know what happened to SOME people.  Legend20x went to college, graduated, and went to work in a real industry.  CaptainTomX, apparently, is a history teacher now?  What the hell, he was some goofy kid, now he's... teaching history.  That blows my mind.  It makes me feel like i missed the boat somewhere... that i should have moved on to some higher level in life, to the point that DeviantArt no longer seemed like a good use of my time -- you know, working a better job, getting married, having kids, etc.  I have this lifelong fear of being left out, left behind, not getting to where i'm supposed to be.

I am kind of a simple person.  I tend to keep doing the same things for years and years.  I'm not sure where the line between "determination" and "stagnation" is.  

I was walking around my beloved Workplace K yesterday, thinking how much i love the place... and then realizing that there's a danger there.  Because i'm so loathe to leave the place.  (Last year, while still at Workplace R, i did go and get a new job.... only to hate it utterly, and quit after two days.)  Like most people, as i get older, my appetite for total life change seems to be lessening.  There's only so many times you can tear everything down and start over.  The fact that i can talk to people at Workplace K and we both remember things like the flood of 2010... is valuable.  Since i don't have much in the way of family or belong to a church or any other sort of community... it's like, damn, this place is all i have.

Workplace K.  DeviantArt.  My brother, and my best friend.  Those are the pillars of my life.

Anyway, for the people who are here and reading this, i'm glad you're here.  Believe me, i have no plans to ever vanish.  I hope DeviantArt doesn't go anywhere.  If it does, i'll be crushed. 

I can't think of a song for today.